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BLOG SUICIDE
08.09.05 (12:59 pm)   [edit]

Goodbye everyone you are all losers i hate you all (apart from the selected few who know who you are). Im in Glasgow right now with my dearest tugce its rather grand and tomorrow nigjht im going to see 'everytime i die'. I also got rather amused by a scene in the ring when the woman tells her kid to go to his room and he freaks jus watch his face what a lege....but,erm thats another story now where was i o yeh im leaving tblog 4ever and ever and youll never hear from moi again so farewell all and good ridance (not that anyone reads this shit anyway)


shoxxxxxxxx


p.s if you havent got a clue whats going on read gothikgurls delightful blog x

 
wot would you do?
07.12.05 (1:54 am)   [edit]

Okay so this is quite serious. What would you do if one of your best frends hated you and wasnt happy for you when you had good luck and was only frends with you if they needed something.


What would you do if one of your 'frends' was being all 'im your best frend' and 'your so cool' to your face when another frend had admitted that this person has been bitching about you behind your back and stirring shit and using you coz no one else likes them


please tel me wot would you do

 
weekend
07.11.05 (4:30 am)   [edit]

Hey


Had a rather good weekend stayed over at ts house and we ate octopus (dont ask) for tea. Then on sunday we went swimming with her family and then we went to a raging speedhorn gig and it rocked. kyra were really cool aswell ya gotta hear them


anywayz g2g shoxxxxxx

 
this is me (bloody hell)
06.29.05 (5:21 am)   [edit]

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This is me with my black hair and Ally looking rather foxy in our school uniforms lol if you look very carefully you can see half of Sam, Hannah and Alex. This is what is meant to be tutor time (or in our forms case sliding along the worktops (we have the food room),locking eachother in the pantry,listening to music and play fighting).This also happens in phse. I dont know who hired our form tutor but all i do know is that he can do a rather realistic crazy frog impression and whoever did hire him was'nt exetremely right in the head....



This is me in around february/march. My hair was tinted purpley pink but you cant tell in this photo even though in real life you couldnt help but notice


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This is me and Tugce looking great i look moody lol were at nikkis house and we fell out but were now inseperable again


anyway that is me ill see you all later my lovelies


shoxxxxxxxxx

 
i wont let this biuld up inside of me...
06.16.05 (2:45 am)   [edit]

Hey its june and its raining and i feel shit lol. i keep seeing a certain someone and dont notice me and if they do they just stare at me like i have freak tatooed on my forehead wich sucks. And i sometimes think im over them but i dont think i am coz everytime i see him i feel worse which is annoying and i want him so much to be mine...


 


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suits me...


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right now i know how this feels


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really cute


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i sometimes wonder this


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this is wot comes to mind when most people put me down


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anyway on monday ive got photo of sum1 very foxy lol cya


pixiex

 
take my hand were off to never never land..
06.13.05 (2:47 am)   [edit]

Hey i went to download for the saturday and it was fucking awsome.. I went with luke and dan and a load of other people came with us (sophie,lizzie,johnny,owe n,john,sam and sam) who were all really cool and some adulty relatives cept i dont think anyone really liked me coz i get really shy the first time i meet people so i couldnt bring myself to say much god im so pathetic everyone was still really nice to me and i feel sorry for lizzie and sophie having to put up with me. went shopping at the market area and got some v.v.long baggy pants and a tshirt that says 'jesus loves you evryone else thinks youre an arsehole' lol im easily amused


anyway part of me is starting to go off someone and i feel a bit shit. also ally's stupid mum told my mum that we smoke and im grounded for a week and she cried and said i needed help and shit


anywayz bi bi shoxxx

 
foxy pics from saturday
05.16.05 (3:46 am)   [edit]

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v.v.foxy


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ugly lil me


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me and nikki on saturday nite lol


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me and tugce being foxy ladies


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for my dear lil nikki


 


 


 

 
download tickets arrived
05.11.05 (6:22 am)   [edit]

Lol today i found out jays fav colour that y he wear green boxers then ha


Anyway my download ticket arrived today *dances with ticket in hand* cant wait i going on the saturday when black sabbath, HIM and velvet revolver are playing.


Oh yeah and i might be getting my hair cut the style is kind of Brody Daleish and i might be getting it dyed black and purple/red aswell


Sum people in this ict room making me laugh lol


g2g shoxxxx

 
my fav songs today
05.04.05 (6:19 am)   [edit]

DISTILLERS LYRICS

"The Hunger"

Holy eyes, I never knew I'd beg down at your feet
Hold on tight I never knew I'd know much more than this
Open sky, the wave of pain the scent of you is bliss
Hungry eyes, they stare at me I know, I know
Don't go!

Summertime, the taste of saint secretes of perfume mist
Console the mind, I take it in the lips of pink I kiss
Lonely sky, the more you take the more that I give in
Holy eyes, I never knew, I know, I know
Don't go!

Hold onto the memory, it's all you got
I know you'll be there to soak up blood lost
Blood lost
Blood lost

Don't go!

Hold on to the memory, it's all you got
I know you'll be there to soak up blood lost
Hold on to the memory, it's all you got
I know you'll be there to soak up blood lost
Blood lost


 


Nymphetamine (Fix)

[BONUS TRACK]

Lead to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A 'V' of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones

Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl

Wracked with your charm
I am circled like prey
Back in the forest
Where whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt
(Keeping Sodom at night at bay)

Fold to my arms
Hold their mesmeric sway
And dance to the moon
As we did in those golden days

Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay

Bared on your tomb
I am a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above unto me?
For once upon a time
From the binds of your lowliness
I could always find
The right slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discolours all with tunnel vision
Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine

Sunsetter
Nymphetamine
None better
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
Nymphetamine girl
Nymphetamine, nymphetamine
My nymphetamine girl


"Clown"

life is within my body
four clicks. . . alright go
*click* *click* *click*
four I just said, you faggot piece of shit on the ground
ahh! four?
four. four?
*click* *click* *click*
Noooo!
Oh, hey, what are you talking about Ross?
Hey, the song's on! (hey Ton Ton)
. . . Ern! . . . Ern! . . . Ern! . . .
hey, are you saying so there's no clicks
hey, we're recording, now start
Just fucking do it damn it!
*click* *click*
I wanna get a twist. I wish we could put twist
on a fucking tape. . . stupid
Wanna hear it?
Fuck you! Fuck you!
Huh Hueh
Goooo!
Okay. . . you piece of shit!

Anger inside builds within my body
Why'd you hit me? What have I done?
You tried to hit me!

Scream at me again, if you like
Throw your hate at me with all your might
Hit me 'cause I'm strange, hit me!
You tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder then me
What's with you boy? Think hard.
A tatooed body to hide who you are
Scared to be honest, be yourself
A cowardly man!

I don't run around trying to be what's not within me
Look into my eyes, I am free
You're just a wanna-be

To come out

Hit me clown
because I'm not from your town, now hit me clown

Clown you ain't shit. Turn around and get your face split.

I'm just too fucking little! [3x]
I'm just a fucking mental! [4x]


 



Blood lost

 
i wasnt born with enough middle fingers.....
05.04.05 (5:49 am)   [edit]

Hey just had 3 bloody maths tests i hate tests they hurt my brain. lol anyway i hope my lucky skull will have brought me luck coz if i do well i might get to go to download.*skips around excitedly like a child*


aparently im immature. Coming from someone that decided to text me telling me they were going to kill themselves and making me feel like it was my fault wen actually they were pissed and a bit stoned. well i think its a bit rich.


anyway before i bore myself to death i will go bi bi shoxxxxxx


 


 

 
where is my mind
05.03.05 (3:30 am)   [edit]

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cute skeletons from my dream


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how i feel


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scary


really bored had 2 shitty sats exams on science so u probably get the picture of how just how crap it really was and now im sat in a room with a load of people who hate me yippee. Really hate my life at the moment cept i might be going to download with my dear lil luke and my dear lil dan *smiles* and i am going out with the most gorgeous guy on the planet so i cant really complain


anyway cya later


luv pixiexxxxx


 

 
Ive felt the hate rise up in me,kneel down and clear the stone of leaves,i wonder no where you can s
04.28.05 (6:16 am)   [edit]

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heres some things that cheer me up lol sorry if u wanted them tugce


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anyway today:tugce im really really sorry,nikki ill only go to the cinema if you come,ally you owe me about 5,brenna dont want you in my life no more fuck off,eve dye yer hair,holly u rule soz if i been leaving u out,kay im sorry,joey if ur reading this ill talk to u on msn on friday/saturday nite (day for u) x,brett i no u wont read this but if u do dont take shit from anyone.


Anyway thats all g2g luv ya all xxxx


pixie

 
sick and weak from my condition....
04.27.05 (6:24 am)   [edit]

Hey havent writen anything for a while so heres a small up date:


I hate my life and am thinking bout running away and never ever coming back


I got busted skiving with allan in town and now i have to go to crappy tutor time and assemblies etc


The crappy voices in my head told me to dye my hair red but its fading to a slightly orangey reddy blondey colour and looks shit. Dunno what colour to do next so its a choice of black and purple/tropical green (not as crap as it sounds)/brown


I may have to kill myself if i cant find anything more to my life than school shit and kendal ie excitement


 


that is all


aurivour


pixie (foxy lady)

 
thankyou for the venom
04.20.05 (3:52 am)   [edit]

O.k so ive not written much for a while so heres an update:


1.It was my bday on the 30th it was crap but i got a lot of money


2.I going out with someone but i dont know if they actually like me and they live in different coutry and i confused


3.The stupid voice inside my head sed @dye your hair red@ so i listened to that stupid voice and now i wish i hadnt because not only do people say @look at the stupid goth@ they say stuff bout ketchup and i hate them saying shit about me it hurt


4.Also i hate living in cumbria-it shit


5.All my frends r mad at me


cya sho

 
Ill never rot and never go away
04.11.05 (6:24 am)   [edit]

 this is me and gothikgurl


 


 me again


 


 ledzep bitch


 


 

 
im not ok i promise
03.23.05 (6:12 am)   [edit]

So bored. Just had house matches and i guess i didnt do too badly. Felt really shit this morning and continplated killing myself again. Oh and i cant be arsed going swimming 2nite theres no point.


Cant think of much to put apart from that i think im going to b single for the rest of my life and i will be eaten by alsations


anyway g2g   &nbs p;     ;         & nbsp;   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   &nbs p;    pixie


 


p.s on a lighter note rachel pickup got hit with the hockey ball


 


p.p.s she cried

 
my life is pointless
03.21.05 (6:26 am)   [edit]
Bloody hell this is boring ive just had art so im covered in immulsion paint and i wish id never turned up for skool today i think every1 is in a mood with me but wots new. I really wish i didnt exist at all the whole world would be better without me and im uglier than words can descibe. Any1 who goes on my blog and tells me the usual shit that im not is a liar so dont waste ur time. Maybe ill wake up dead.......
 
Ive been the butt of a cosmic jk and i dont get the punch line...
03.17.05 (6:10 am)   [edit]

O.k so yesterday was really crap i came last out of everyone,and at lunch i had foil thrown at me and then i felt really crap and jealous of every1 so thats it really and i guess im being pathetic


anyway g2g sho

 
hungry eyes,i never ever fell down at your feet...
03.14.05 (6:20 am)   [edit]

Ok so i complain a lot about things dont i (be honest) so ill be nice and positive. Well its nearly my bday and this is my dream list (sum of it anyway):
1.Tickets for me and some frends to go to download
2.A mini ipod
3.Newrock boots
4.Lots of new clothes from attitude/grind store
5.A foxy guy


This is my realistic list:
1.A nice top with long witchy sleeves
2.A bench hoody(a really long green/black 1 with hood)
3.money


 


I would really like a fit lad........but thats asking for a bit too much


anyway cya later pixie


 

 
TIRED OF BEING WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE
03.11.05 (6:27 am)   [edit]

Hey had a really shit day. Me and ally normally sit and stare at the forbidden table. But jay was off today and this afternoon every1 was picking on this boy called ryan stavely wich is fucking harsh they was saying he had bad BO and spraying him with deodrant so he just walked out of the lesson and no1 would tell the truth about wat they did. Just coz he went to queenie, god lakes school sux.


I hate being here i just wantto be accepted for who i am instead of being criticized about my worthless existance. I wish i could just disappear.


anyway g2g pixiexxx

 
im a saint got a date with suicide...
03.10.05 (6:29 am)   [edit]

Omigod!!!!!!!!I really hate school. Every1s like 'omigod!Shos got purple hair shes a goth shes a virgin slayer bla bla bitch bitch etc' no1 can except the way i am apart from my few frends


eve-somimes you cant except it that i dont like some of your punky bands and get in a mood that im frends with allesha well ive known her for 12years and you for 6 months, it takes me a bit to trust people and i hardly see you


holly-you dont really talk to me much


nikki-you dont give a shit how i dress


ally-you always stick by me even when i want to hate you i cant i dont know y but i cant really live without you


tugce-youve been 1 of the best frends any1 could ever wish for and you saved me a lot of times


*huggles all my frends*


God im so ungrateful for all youve ever done for me and i hate myself for that


Oh and tgce wot u did yesterday was so stupid but wot ever happens ill stand by you ok


cya pixiexxxx

 
I WALK THIS LONELY ROAD THE ONLY ROAD THAT I HAVE EVA KNOWN.....
03.09.05 (4:45 am)   [edit]
O.k so lots has happned since i last wrote a blog. I went 2 kendal with kay and nikki and bought sum purple hair ye and my do now looks v.foxy and kay decided 2 buy a cowboy hat and pretend 2 ride a horsey (if u saw any1 do that i was the 1 walking behind her in a nirvana hoody) and we saw kat,mo and kt and sum other people we no wich is cool. anyway i gotta go explain 2moro cya pixiexxx
 
The scent of you is bliss....
03.03.05 (6:20 am)   [edit]
Hey put 3 foxy songs on my blog for everyones enjoyment just click on the link then minimise the screen. A big hello to brenna every1s thinking of you sweetie and i did go on your blog but forgot to comment and i treated myself to a few shiny songs. Thanx hun xxx. Anyway today was shit feel so useless and pathetic its like im not real im empty and hollow all around me people are happy and laughing and having fun and i join in and then i just feel so shit again i dont know why im so ugly and stupid and pathetic i feel like im drowning in my own doom. anyway g2g pixie
 
slipknot-wait and bleed
03.03.05 (3:49 am)   [edit]
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marilyn manson-long hard road out of hell
03.03.05 (3:42 am)   [edit]
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I'm no barbie doll I'm not your baby girl I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word? Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud